Little Things

Isn't it crazy how the littlest things can set us off??
I lost my debit card about a week ago (if you never have it makes life really complicated). Today I had to get gas, and my credit got came up as a declined bank card, since I was already running late for work I just paid with the only cash I had. After filling up and getting back on my way I had a sudden urge to cry. Totally silly...I know. I mean I got gas and I was on my way, but it just made me feel awful that I couldn't pay for it the way I wanted to.
I'm not crazy or depressed, and we can't even blame PMS; however I do know the cause of my frustrations. My grandma is in a nursing home and on Wednesday she took a turn for the worse and they estimate her time left at about 3 weeks. This is incredibly sad news of course, but she has been suffering since she went in months ago. I really want her to go because she isn't the woman I remember, and I know she isn't even remotely happy. I will miss her dearly but I have to remember that she had 86 wonderful years on this earth.
On that sad note I will end this post before I start crying at work and make a fool out of myself!